Dear Laruf:

What you are describing is the symptoms that would fit the OCD, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, specifically Harm OCD, that is obsessing about harming other people, especially those close to you.

Anxiety, this ongoing, excessive fear, usually since childhood is in the core of OCD as well as in the core of many diagnoses. Many combinations of symptoms aka diagnoses, one core issue: anxiety.

I read part of your thread and will read all of it tomorrow, Thursday morning and will reply further then. Please take care of yourself.

anita