I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but love is hard. True or otherwise. It’s not always going to be easy.

It shouldn’t be this hard, though. It sounds like this guy is bad for you, doesn’t really care for you, and doesn’t respect you. You should leave him.

It’s going to be hard to recover, I agree, but the solution is simple: find a guy who is good to you, cares for you and respects you. Until then, be good to yourself, care for yourself and respect yourself. You can start by dumping your current man.