Midnight,

That might be true, but I can’t have a clear memory of how much my parents were around. All I know they weren’t very happy. And yes, I do have this behavior of neglecting people instantly and assume that i do need anyone, I am better off alone, and I don’t have the urge to open up, I find it unnecessary. It just hurts me and tears me up that I am still confused whether it is really my childhood that is making me like this, or it is the fact that I do not love him and I am using my childhood as an excuse.