Anita,

In addition to my response, I’d like to also mention that I have read Healing Words topic of how to open up, and I kind of relate to what she said in terms of ” I think part of my problem may be genetic or upbringing since my brother is similar to me in that we have little to no friends, do not show affection toward others and have never been in a relationship well into our adulthood. However I am aware that I can one day turn this around if I change. My dad tended to be absent in stages of my life due to work but I would still see him at night. I was described as a happy baby and child, rarely cried always smiled and I guess that was true until I was about 5.”
But I wasn’t bullied, and I did have good amount of friends but general friendships not deep ones, I always felt left out and alone, not always welcomed, I always had fear of being abandoned, and I always kept things to myself and looked miserable all the time, that is why people used to call me “emo” back in middle and high school. I literally cannot stress how much I fail at showing affection.