Dear anita,

Right after this post, I got 2 consecutive interviews in very short time for a promising company. There would be some considerable compromises to be made in terms of lifestyle from my part, if they end up hiring me for the job. I know interviews are supposed to be challenging as to test the candidate responses to stress, alertness and negotiating skills. But I felt a bit angered after every meeting, I can’t explain why. There were some questions implying that I was a bad employee. Maybe after my troubles last year I should expect such questions, but maybe, just maybe there is a tendency in job interviewing, viewing a person wanting to change companies or after couple of months of unemployment as a bad thing… If this is some kind of vibe I am picking about choosing this company, it’s confusing. Maybe I will need to think about eventual offers.
In the mean time I tried to follow-up for the other position I mentioned earlier, in my former company. I spoke to former coworkers and according to them they liked me for the job but were waiting for something. So now, a month later, seeing the job post updated and still hanging on the public boards, I decided to gently check with HR if I am still considered for the job. Not only didn’t I receive any response but it was a system generated sorry message. Maybe HR are over stressed. But it got me calling back my formed manager, explaining I never meant to mislead him about going back to his team and where a misunderstanding between us might have come from. Then asking how come he gave me this information and the result from HR is negative. According to another former colleague, my former manager only wanted me back on his team when he needed me, otherwise not in the company. If this was really true, conveniently I’m good enough for the company only when he needs to fix his excel table, and not otherwise… He then told me that a rehire ticket has been raised which was rejected by country HR manager. As a last resort, I took the nerve to write directly to country HR a rehire petition letter, reminding my work experience in the company, my achievements, and regretting some past mistakes, promising to give all from my side if they reconsider my application. But I don’t expect much from this, considering what happened in the past…
I feel so hopeless…. everything is upside down…