Saw her today at work as she was doing some shoppping, we talked a little and gave eachother a huge hug. She was confused what I meant when I text her “was looking for 30 more for a reason”, then told her it was to overdose. She said it’s very serious I talk to the doc when I see him next and tell him the truth what my plans were that day and to see if i can get to see a Psychiatrist and that she’s very happy I told her this. So next time I see the doc i’ll tell him the truth about that day. Just hope he does not freak out and get me put into some type of crazy hospital ward.