Hi Allicia

First off, I wold like to say that ending your life is not an option, for the following reasons:

– You’re too beautiful a human being for that
– from all the spiritual articles I read I understand that ending your life will not end the challenge. You will have to repeat it again.

So, like all of us, you are facing a challenge. I have gone through major life challenges myself (divorce, lost Love, autistic child), and this is what I have learned:

– These challenges are never ever there to punish us, They are always there to teach us something.
– You would not be faced with this challenge if you did not have what it takes to master it and learn from it

I went through a lot of misery after my divorce, and it’s okay to feel down. But that is what made me strong, because I had to question who I am, what I REALLY want to do in life. Ultimately we need to decide what we want from life. No one can live it for us.
It sounds like you know what your passion is (art). Is there a way you could do architecture and art at the same time? Maybe you could take some art classes for maybe 2 nights a week, and see if that is what you really want to do. I believe your Soul is sending you a very clear message that you are not doing what you really want to do. Our passions tell us in what direction we need to go, so you do have the direction (art), which is great.
Your parents are of course concerned, as any good parents would be. They want you to be secure in life, because that’s what all parents want for their children. But it’s your life, not theirs. If you hate architecture so much now, that’s not going to change once you have your diploma. You will still hate it afterwards, and still be faced with the same challenge.
This is a decision that you need to make. I do not know if you believe in God or not, but I can tell you that I prayed a lot for guidance when I was down, and I did get the answers I needed when I needed them. You are not alone, ever. There is ALWAYS someone watching out for us. If you open your Heart and ask for guidance, I do believe it will be given to you.

It sounds like you have a real passion for art. Many people don’t even know what their passion is. You do, which is awesome, and it would be such a shame to waste that talent. Shine your Light, the world needs it.

God bless
Gunter