Xenopus,

I sense a lot of pain within you – work has given meaning to things, helped you cope and escape but has it really healed things for you? Your view about the world is skewed from the start thanks to negative experiences, your mind is suspicious of others – if they are spontaneous and even if they aren’t. The world you see more than half of your day is one where the most messed up people come and it just gives you reinforcement for what you already hold true anyway. Part of you wants to break free and yet you don’t because you have never seen the gentler, emotional side of things – unconditional love at its best. I wonder if you think it actually exists?

I know i might be sounding like one of those dreamer types but i do have one question to ask you – are you really happy or even peaceful from inside? Everyone has their own demons but have you really dealt with yours?

Endless work, critique, a negative view-point, warrior-like stances – all very useful in the profession but are they the entire story in your life? Have you wondered why you can’t sleep peacefully still? Where do you want your life to be 10 years from now non-professionally?

Ask yourself these questions sometimes.

Regards,
Nina