so my special friend’s gf is in my u.s history ii class and lately she has been jealous of me like she glares at me and mutters under her breath. she is very awkward around me even when i act polite and say hi. i think she feels worried that my special friend likes me more and i will steal him from her. i don’t think i would ever do that to her. in 10th grade, she was in my chem. honors class and i am still grateful to her b/c she helped me understand a chemistry topics better and she was very helpful in that class. if my special friend is happy with her and if she is happy, i’m fine with it. i feel bad b/c today i was a bit stressed from my classes and at lunch when my special friend tried to catch my attention, i ignored him b/c i just wanted to be alone. he had been a bit worried about me after 2nd block (u.s. history) when i saw him while going to my locker b/c he could tell i was a bit stressed even though i gave a makeshift impression that i wasn’t. so he tried to catch my attention at lunch, but i was busy focusing on school work and ignored him. i like my special friend and i know he is a loyal person with the people he cares about. i realized that every time he sees a blonde girl, he tenses up b/c they remind him of a former broken relationship that he had who the girl was mean to him, so when he sees a girl who is blonde, memories come back to him. i feel bad for him and i hope he gets over that memory. that memory is like an inner bully to him and also i can connect b/c i have my own inner bully from some of my memories. we are good friends although sometimes we argue and are unsure about ourselves.