hi
Kadidja
After reading your post one thing I have understood is that you really miss your friend .
And its ok if you miss her because you guys had spent such good times together.
But since you are in such a pain I would like to tell you that you should spend some time alone just forgetting her (not that you don’t have to reply to her when she texts but you just don’t texts her) and understand the fact that when you are alone not that you will not be mentally and emotionally with her, you would still be emotionally with her but eventually it will come to rest with a lot of practice that will help you relax off course.
And why i am asking you to do this is because when you value your alone time people around you will began to value your time with them. So starting giving value to your time then only shell realise the value of your time.
Its important to understand the value of time and be in gratitude for the time that you get for yourself.
Because in the end if you’ll not value yourself trust me no body will
Just remember all the things you want to do for yourself
Hope you understand this
Love and light
Mishika