thanks for your edits anita, my essay was just a template for my college essays so when it comes to the real essay, i may add some stuff and revise other stuff. i will still make it appealing and emotional, but not too dark. i wrote the essay to bring my inner bully to light and now that i’ve gotten the story off my chest, i feel much lighter. also my special friend and i saw each other after 2nd block today just before lunch. he asked how my classes were going and i said they were fine. he could tell i was lying, so he followed me to my locker and when a lot of the other students left, he asked me again. i didn’t feel like telling him, but he was very compassionate and said “i’ll always be here for you.” so i told him about how i was afraid that i wouldn’t do well in ap calc and ap biology. he then hugged me and said it would be okay and that i was a smart person and things would sort out well. at lunch he also kept a watch out for me when i was doing my hw and when i felt upset over a problem , he came over and encouraged me to do it my best. i also told him that i was afraid that since he now had a gf, he didn’t care about me anymore and he said “i’ll always care for you. i know you’ve been through alot. and i will continue to help you b/c we have been through a lot together and we’ll make it no matter what happens.” he is just such a great guy. we even talked about college applications and he helped me be a lot more optimistic about them;)