Yes, it does make sense. Self-protection for now. Being numb so I can at least function day-to-day.I have filled my hours with all the minute details of a move ( change addresses, find stores, doctors, get my work/internet/phone set-ups,. etc) that I feel like I cant think of anything else. The intense longing and desire for R-1 to come and take me away, is sort of on the back-burner and that sort of bothers me. (In my first thread, I misnamed R-2 as wanting to take me away, its R-1 I meant). See, my mind is somewhat scrambled for now. I feel that once I have settled in and this environment becomes familiar, that I can then focus on my next step. Hell, I cant find where my boots are, in this tower of boxes! I just feel odd that I am not absolutely ecstatic and giddy with joy of unburdening myself of the house and feeling free from that. Maybe I have been on edge and anxious these few weeks as all this change is overwhelming. Poor R-1. He continues to soothe me and make me calmer, and never complains or becomes impatient with my talking through all my worries. He is always positive and calms/comforts me, and never raises his voice or sounds annoyed with me. He is my sanctuary for the storms that will come! Will post again once the smoke has cleared a little bit. Missed Tiny Buddha for the 2 weeks ( now 3) that I was in limbo! Thanks again!