Your thread is really good and everything you mentioned here are the same things i have felt. I’ve been running low on self-esteem and confidence since years. Till my 6th grade i was socially connected with everyone and mischievous. I moved to a new school from 7th grade and things got a better. I was good in academics but on other side i lost contact with my best friends, became an introvert. Ever since then, when i tried to mingle with someone it felt like no one cared or i don’t seem to fit in.
Had a rough childhood because of my dad (domestic violence, etc). I’m not angry on him or blame him anymore. As i’m content with whatever he does for my education. I’ve always feared that i would be left alone like this for the rest of my life. Luckily I’ve never been in a relationship except for a one sided love madness which left me more lonely and depressed. I’ve managed to get help from here, but soon everything goes crazy with me as i feel peaceful. This site is amazing and i’ve learnt some great stuff. I thought i was the only one in the world feeling anti social and lonely, but once i surfed through the site, i learnt that there are millions of people who are broken, depressed and lonely. I thought this phase exists only in teenage but i think these symptoms come in us from time to time regardless of age.