Sorry it sent before I finished!

Yes I remember writing those posts and how upset I was at the time when I sent them. As for the weed/drug situation he has actually stopped that entirely for me a few months ago and i know has been working or aware of his anger ..so I know he really does want things to work and tries to make changes to keep me. Yes I guess in this present moment considering how the last few days have been it does feel right to go on my own rather than force something that’s not working right now and for my friends/family sake.

Apart from that when i get back I’m still holding on to a hope that maybe he could get help / we could and still be together after some time apart?? He is my home here, everything..i feel really lost without him 🙁 In between the arguments its like we have the best relationship, we treat each other well, we do have trust and i know we really love each other..it’s just like you said when i have to bring up a fragile issue or with communication. I just feel so sick inside right now because i really believe if you love each other you can get through anything.

Also as you’ve seen on the news I’m actually going back to where all the earthquakes are and bad weather so its all scary and I don’t think I’ll be moving home anytime soon. I was just starting to feel at home in Australia with him 🙁

Thanks again x