Hi everyone,

A quick update. So the next day, October 31 2016, (my anniversary date with my ex) I get to work and I got FIRED.
It was already a terrible day to start with, but that just made it worse. But I guess it was a nice distraction from obsessing over the day as well.

After some thinking, I took that as a blessing in disguise. The work environment was not very professional anyway, and there was no room for advancement, and also was one of the last “things” that was having me hold on to my ex as he had an influence as to why I got the job there originally.

So, I lost my job. I then decided to spontaneously get my hair cut. My hair was probably just above my belly button and I cut it to my ears!!! It actually looks alright, better than I expected.

Okay so, that’s job gone, hair gone. I then went to my ex and told him what happened, I think I subconsciously wanted to see what I would be missing if I saw him one last time. After that, guess what? I successfully cut contact!

BUT, then he texted me out of the blue an I gave in and now I feel like crap again. I was so close.. WHAT can I do to keep moving forward? I am SO easily persuaded by him and it’s as if I forget how abusive he can be. Part of me was so happy that he texted me first because I was the one who was always chasing..