Its a knot of fear, shame, hatred, pain, guilt. Like I said, some things were done to me and I did things to others. I know that I have to let this stuff go, but I don’t know how to do that. I’m not trying to forget. But I’ve been holding onto this for so long. Letting it define who I was, how I saw myself. The rest I’m working on. Changing my inner voice, expressing feelings, but how to let that past go I just don’t understand. Its the one piece I can’t grasp how to do. I literally do not comprehend how.