Thank you all for the replies. I haven’t talk to him two days now. I feel better by now. It’s been 6 weeks but we were fighting the first two then talking ok the next two after that. He knows how to reel me in by subtly making me believe we are making progress. And I know his MO. Right now what I need to do is build strength for when he comes back saying so hey how u been doing? And then he turns that into reeling me back in. And I’ve always been so damn gullible. He never even has to ask me to come back. It’s so twisted. He finds ways to win me over and coerce me into making the decision that he can’t balls up and ask. If I don’t stay busy literally every second I think of him and fight having a breakdown. Although it’s a bit easier everyday.