Well done Meggosaurus.

This man needs to heal, take it from me, 6 months into healing from my ex boyfriend and after going back and forward with him, undecided f what I want I have come to the conclusion that regardless if I still want a relationship with him, I come first, and that means taking as much time as I need to heal. A marriage carries a lot more than a relationship so I would imagine it’d take a lot longer.
He was probably seeking a relationship to cover up his own pain, and you’re not the right person for this.
Work on yourself as well in this time and try & get to the bottom of your anxiety (this is usually worries about the future)