Hi Anita. Yes, that’s exactly it. I felt like I was almost home when I was with my ex’s family. They were genuinely lovely people who would help anyone. I’ve got so much respect for them. My parents love me in their own ways but (without sounding big headed) they don’t have the emotional intelligence to understand where I’m coming from. I can see the cause in both their behaviours but can’t exactly tell them. 1.) because they will definitely take offence and 2.) they wouldn’t believe in therapy. It’s so lonely for me cos I want to feel that closeness and understanding with them but know I’ll never get it. It doesn’t help that I live with them. I’ve got this resentment towards my mum especially for masking my anxiety when I was a child. She struggles with her own anxiety but has never done anything about it and always lent on my Gran who was emotionally abusive to her. My mum can be emotionally abusive to me too. My dad used to be violent towards my mum years ago too and it just shows she has no self respect. for years I’ve seen the same things happen. There’s no violence now, that stopped as I got older but my parents stay together for convenience. It’s really put me off relationships but not just for that reason. I don’t think it’s fair to get involved with someone when I’m not emotionally stable and potentially jobless! x