Laion, precious,

It sounds like you are on a journey of self discovery and healing. Of course, you will be on that your whole life; such a path is never ending, with ever increasing insights and ever increasing peace. Of course, becoming a ‘healed you’ is going to be best for both yourself and for your partner.

In communicating with your partner and possibly returning to each other–let him make his own decision about whether he wants to be with you. Don’t make it for him ‘ahead of time before he has a chance to make it’. Keep it simple. Don’t give him the analysis you gave us (at least to begin with, unless you both want to explore deep into each others’ psyche). But for this first conversation when you apologize and ask for him back–just ask . . . ‘Can you take me as I am with all my flaws?’ If he says ‘Yes’ (and which sounds like he is more able to do that for you than you are for yourself), then allow it. And, plainly, love him back. Just love him. (With his flaws.)

Well, I wish you the best. And I hope you can come to a little happier ending here, you both deserve it. Prayers.
~Jennifer