Dear Anita
Well, I felt inadequate because he doesn’t give the attention I need to feel adequate. Of cause I’m not asking for his 24/7 standby, but his effort of calling as and when he’s free, even if it’s 1-2 minutes call. I felt that he can go on with or without me, and if I no longer be with him, he doesn’t feel he lost me. That’s why I felt quite insignificant. When I’m down or depress, he doesn’t seem to show emotional support (maybe the way i want), I feel that he can only handle happy moments but not challenge moments on the relationship. Felt that it’s like “please go and manage your own temperament behavior and whimps. I can’t take in all of these nonsense as I’m already so busy and stress up with work already” trying very hard to understand him, I felt neglected. I told him before, while he said that he already texted me more than he texted his family members.

Maybe I am too demanding. I should be more independent, having my own programs and not revolve most of my focus on him. I shouldn’t have depend on him for my own happiness, which further drained and stress him more. He told me he wanted me to love myself more, and that both person should be happy and ok to be alone (by themselves) before loving and going into a relationship.