wow..i never thought about it like that…it does make sense..when i was a kid if i did something wrong or didn’t do anything, or if i didn’t do my Homework properly he would yell at me or hit me. I was always one edge, waiting to see if he would yell at me.
And then later in life when i got older he couldnt hit me anymore but then my relationships would always fail or i would pursue someone and end up being cast aside or rejected after being lead on and given false hope so many times