@anita :I know I can’t change being shy. Not that much. He took me several times to his friends but I couldn’t open myself in front of so many people. He explained to them before but I’m afraid he thought I wouldn’t be that silent.
It was for example hard for me to express my negative feelings about something because I didn’t want to start a fight. I know it wasn’t very clever because days after I admited I wasn’t satisfied.
I think he was afraid in falling in love again. He had a 5 yrs girlfriend he loved and she ended it. I don’t know all details but I think he was out of that feeling after one year je spent single.
My shyness and fear of (rejection, take a responsibility, etc.) is a cause of many fails in my life. I think I have anxiety and mild form of Asperger’s. I don’t have close friends but I found some on Facebook support group.
I don’t think I was clingy or needy or that I acted desperate in the relationship. So maybe his friends told him I’m weird and quiet.
Next thing: My body. I can’t loose a weight. I tried almost everything but it wasn’t working. I hate every single piece of my skin. I know my face is pretty as I heard it many times before but my body is just. 🙁
I was slim in past but since than I couldn’t return to my weight using same method of exercise and eating. Like my hormones went crazy.
So how could I feel sexy when I was so big. It’s like my personality is stuck in this horrible thing called body.
And my sexual apetite was low especially because I was in my job per 12 hours daily and it killed me mentally and physically.
Why he withdrew from vacation idea? We planned it on March so break up happend three weeks ago.

I would do anything to know what were his reasons. But I know he will not tell me because he simply don’t want to talk about it.