@lukesblues

Yes, I’m still in relationship with that girl. The thing is.. I really love her. She’s great, we fit each other perfectly, we both love travelling, she’s fun person to be around, we almost never argue.. She has all qualities to be a perfect life partner

on the other hand, relationship with my Ex was rocky form the beginning, there was a lot of jealousy and other unhealthy emotions. Yet.. there was an amazing chemistry, which I don’t feel for my current girlfriend. It was something electrical and it still gives me shivers when I think about it. I miss this “kick” which made me feel like walking in the air.

I am on strict NC for almost a year now. I have cut all communication with my ex. We haven’t said a word to each other since last May. I unfollowed her on all social media, and somehow resist the urge to check her profile. Since last May, there were only two times when I saw her picutre on facebook and it’s only becouse one of our common friends liked the picture on which she was tagged. Each time I saw her – I felt ruined.

I feel desperate. I don’t know how to let it go. NC rule doesn’t seem to work for me, becouse I think about my ex every day.
I don’t want it to jeopardize my current relationship. My current girl is kind of person, everyone wished to have as a life partner.

I know that my words may look like not genuine, but I just have feelings for both these girls. I deeply care for my girlfriend, and I’m always there for her when she needs me. We have a very supportive type of relationship. But at the same time, I feel this “chemistry” for my ex, and the fact that she’s unattainable makes me want her even more…

I never felt that confused in my life 🙁