At heart I know he’s not that bad I even understand him for leaving me cause I just did to him the same that my family does to me and was kinda pressuring him to care about me…he tried to be nice to me at some point but as it involved him still meeting with another woman at the same time it just kept on making me angry..

He has a bad family history too..his parents are divorced and keep on fighting…last time when I yelled at him to leave my work place I even felt bad cause I was acting just like his mother..that had yelled at me too during our relationship..

Just feels bad that when I finally thought that maybe something good has happened with me when I met him it turned out in to a big disaster…

and I can’t seem to escape this wheel of bad things happening to me…specially now when I don’t feel like home anywhere…I even understand where it comes from cause my family has always had money problems and we had been moving a lot and I always had this urge to just finally settle somewhere…

Thank you for your advice! Already feels better just to write it out..:)