My appointment is this Thursday afternoon. I tried really hard not to get super encouraged after what he said on Friday afternoon. He and I messaged a little the rest of the afternoon and into the evening but had radio silence over the weekend. Giving him that space and time he needs.

I will see my therapist today which is good because I had a rough weekend. The nights were the worst. No matter what I do during the day to wear myself out I just lay in bed awake thinking of him and the kids and missing them. It is really hard going from being with them to having such little communication. Are the kids ok? Did they do their homework and take their vitamins? Is he ok? Did he get that big project finished at work? I miss talking to them. I would love to see them when I am in town this coming weekend but am scared to say anything to him. I hate feeling like this. It’s not only the having no control over what’s going on, its that my life was turned over and rattled so hard that nothing is laying right now.