Dear Cheryl:

I found your entry in the Activity section but strangely, it is not showing up here. To summarize your entry there, you wrote that you are feeling very depressed, that you cannot control your tars, feeling very empty, guilty, shattered, feeling so much love for the man but knowing that your “love is based out of lie”, and so, you wrote that “the circumstances in the house is not favor to me so I have to quit.” You wrote that you can’t imagine life without him but you “cannot go back because it is not right.”

Does this mean, Cheryl, that you left his house? If so, congratulations for doing the right thing for all parties involved, as it is, the right thing to do. I agree and support you in your thinking that indeed:

“the circumstances in the house is not favor to (you)” – living there under the pretense of needing shelter is not right, having to ask permission for every move you make all day long is unhealthy for you, having to be careful not to make the child angry- unhealthy for you.

I agree that you “cannot go back” because, I agree: “it is not right.”

I wrote to you a few posts ago, that you will suffer either way, if you stay and if you leave. I also wrote to you in that post, that if you stay there is no hope for you to have a better life, no hope in that suffering. But if you leave, you will suffer- but there will be hope for a better life for you.

Endure this suffering you currently experience, because there is hope in it. Post again (I hope it shows up in your thread this time!)

anita