Hi perfect,

I can’t answer your questions about what to do, or where to go. Only one person can. I think those have to come from inside you.

I can share what it looks like to me, having read your post. I see this guy bullying you, by threatening you with his anger, his silences, and with the threat of killing himself. That doesn’t sound like love, to me. Over on your side, I see you letting him bully you, instead of standing up for yourself or walking away.

You can control what YOU do, but you can’t control what HE will do.

I’d suggest you get to work on yourself, knowing your self, owning your self, owning your power. This may be a new way to think about it. I think you don’t want to go on as things are, or else you wouldn’t have posted this.