Tessa, It’s not clear to me why he broke up with you. You’ve been agonizing over whether he wants you or is interested in you for a long time. It seems important to know how you viewed the relationship, what was working and what wasn’t working. And beyond that, if you do fantasize about having a new relationship with him, what what you do differently and what would he do differently? Breakups always happen for a reason, though I happen to think that often they are invitations to grow up, learn, and develop better relationship skills (I apply this to myself).