You are right. However, I’m young and I feel cheated of being satisfied with the aesthetics of my lover when I should be at the peak of my looks and being with people who are as beautiful as they will ever be. I often feel like staying with this person is the right and mature decision as I know that she wants what is best for me, accepts me as I am and wants to know me on a deep level, to a degree that nobody I’ve met before has. I feel like I could just give up my struggles about beauty, lay off my superficial idea of what love should be, accept what will be coming to me eventually anyway and just stay with this person because I know that she is great. However I don’t know if I feel like I’m ready to give up being shallow just yet. It’s like I know I’ll stop caring so much about my own looks and what others think of me later on but right now I enjoy catering to those needs. Do you know what I mean?
I will most definetly be able to provide her with support in getting her a therapist and if we were to stay together I feel like I’d be great at supporting her. I just have to want to thoroughly.