Hello All

Am back after almost a month!!

Nearly nothing happened in this month. After i was excited we gonna meet, he canceled, then i suggested another day and when the day came, he canceled again and gavd me sad facd as if he is upset!!! Ofcourse i know he was running away from meeting. Was so obvious and he was hardly replying to the messages.

So i send him why i wanted to meet him. I told him i should have bern more supportive and shouldnt have pressured him while getting out of abusive relationship. I expressed my feelings to him, remided him of our songs and asked him that i need to know the reason behind his weird attitude and what made him soo much not baring to talk to me or see me and ask him is it a break or a break up and that he is giving up on me!

The following day he replied coldly that he is sorry for not replying but he is busy these days and will call me later!!

Then after a week i send him “r u still busy!!! Anyways just heard a song reminded me how we were ”

He didnt reply except after seeing him putting pic of him with the kids on whats app. I send him that its very nice pic and god bless him and give him peace of heart.

He replied again apologizing he is not answering my message and thanked me on my message.

Then i sent him asking if he took his son to therapy to help him deal with his mam case and the divorce as the sooner after divorce the better for kids because i see sadness in the kids eyes.

Although i was deciding i wont send him again, and to let go, as his attitude is really killing any feelings left inside me,  But today after ten days, tonight i send him “why u gave up on me sooo easily in this way? Its my tight to know the reason, at least to learn for future relationship. Why cant u just make me comfortable. Why cant u  confronte me. Are u afraid i will cry and get upset like last time me met?! Dont worry. I am just curious”

He then replied “it is not that”

so i said “then what? Why this strange stupid attitude? Wy cant u confront? Why u insisting to kill everything like that by your attitude”

He replied he will call me tomorrow to talk.

I replied i wont b able to talk while at work.

Now i dont want to talk to him. May b i was venting with him cos i was shocked and surprised from his attitude. I didnt expect that its to that extent he doesn’t want to talk to me , to that extent he is cold and didn’t even get affected by me reminding him of our memories and songs. May be i just need a message from him just giving me a reason and then ending it for good. To be  brave enough to say he wanna end it completely and give me reasons.

Yes may be when i knew first time i couldnt hold myself from the shock. But now i will accept it but still need reason even if he says he just fell out of love cos felt we r different. But just like that, without giving any reason. Was he acting on me when he said he is not stable and needs time?!

Yes i send him messages cos i need a reason. To just send me on message and thats it. No phone call. May be meeting but still i will look upset. I wont cry or panic this time, but i dont wanna look upset. His posponing several times, killed the positive energy that was inside me and wanted to get hi out of the mood he was in. I wanted to share lots of things with him but not anymore. So even meeting him i do not want.

So what to do now when he calls me?!

What do anyone expect he will say?

Sorry for long post but i was venting as its been long time.

Thanks