Hi everyone. I have never posted in a forum before, but boy do I need to do something. Ok, so I dated a guy off and on for 5 years! I got pregnant and he was heavily using drugs and then joined the methadone clinic. For the past 3 years since our child was born things have been awful. He would dump me a lot, he pulled a gun on me while drinking, there’s a lot. I feel so much guilt and like he’s so awesome and I suck. I beat myself up for the mistakes I made and feel like it’s all my fault and all the stuff he said was true. He dumped me again in dec of 16′ and I filed for a restraining order and was granted a DVO. I couldn’t live like that any longer. Now, I feel like I made a mistake or went to far. We have a child and don’t/can’t speak. It was terrible. Any advice?