Dear wildoceanflower:

Your post above is disturbing, the first of your posts that alarms me.  You’ve been distressed for so long… I don’t think you are well, presently. It may be time to seek professional help, I think it is time, as soon as possible.

Initiate no contact with him, with his girlfriend, with any of his family members. None. No texts, no phone calls, nothing. If the police contacts you, let them know that indeed there will be no contact on your part. Then seek psychiatric or psychological help ASAP.

Let me know what happens, keep posting.

anita