Well, I finally took control.

Feeling completely restless after 3am today, and finally decided to quit my procrastination and apply for online courses at a state community college. I signed up for the fall, so I will spend my summer trying to learn some of the basics that go along with the classes I will be taking so I don’t feel so far behind when I start.

I completely forgot how much I enjoyed school before I graduated. Granted, I was going through some really trying and depressing times, but school was always the one thing I looked forward to. I loved learning.

Now it’s time for me to continue that learning, not just for myself, but to also better my future. Rather than thinking so far ahead to the point to where I’m paralyzed with fear, I’m going to embrace it and try my best to see this through. I want to do this for myself, and feel proud of myself for my accomplishments.

Hopefully this is a step in the right direction. There’s no backing down now, it’s now or never.