Hi, I changed my name so he wouldn’t find me.

so what I mean by a narcissis is a guy who may as well if stood in front of me with a mirror as everything he had me believe about him was a lie, instead he was reflecting my morals, beliefs and my personality back on to me, I felt I had met my soul mate, in the beginning he made me feel so attractive, desirable and loved.

this changed quickly however, he would give me the silent treatment, blocking my number, dissapearing to his sisters as he would say I didn’t make him feel loved or appreciated, I didn’t take his feelings seriously, (usually after I had begged him to help me around the house or financially) as he did nothing! He earned £40 grand a year and yet made me pay all the bills, family outings etc, I had to work split shifts and as fast as I earned he drank it all away.

he would accuse me of cheating when he was the one fooling around, cause arguments over me chatting to make friends that I stopped, asked who I was trying to impress with my makeup so I stopped wearing it. Told me people who relied on benefits were scum and then after making me quit my job and refusing to support our family forced me to claim benefits.

he would love me one day, yet look at me in disgust the next, when he left I didn’t know anything was wrong, he had been so loving towards me.

and this is why I can honestly say, that despite his attempts to hoover me back in, taking his new victim on our holiday to France I would never go back, that man almost destroyed my soul, I know I deserve so much more as do my children, I see myself as a survivor not a victim and I won’t let him win x