Kaynah,

I was in a similar situation like you. I was married for 8 years and together for 12 with my ex. He was a terrible person… he was a sociopath or either a narcissist. I struggled to move past it because of all the mental abuse I endured during the course of our marriage. I was finally able to get out and have been the happiest I have ever been in a very long time. Like you we have a child together and he sees him only 2x per month. He has a girlfriend and I have a boyfriend. At times I would feel strangely when I’d see him with his girlfriend and had thoughts of whether or not he treats her better than he did me and if I was ultimately the one who was crazy. I didn’t want him back but I couldn’t shake these feelings. All I can say is that it does get better with time, I had to occupy my time and also I started dating which really helped me. I was able to meet the most wonderful person and things have been phenomenal. Everything just takes time, it’ll pass.