Hi is me again. Don’t know why each time when I come back here means I am demotivated again. I understand everything need time, but sometimes when anxiety attacks I feel so uneasy, well, I do tell myself some good quote to keep myself calm and motivate, but sometimes it does fail. Last 2 weeks I am joining my friend bridesmaid activities and it turn out is fun although is tired, but it keep me distract for thinking anxiety a while, and make me that 2 weeks seems so motivated. Each time when I after some activities  which I fear or anxious previously, it turns out keep my mind thinking the happiness before and feel life is not that anxious like I think. But it always when days by days doing something routine like work, workout, eat, sleep, sometimes it slowly keep me faded all the previous anxiety distraction, then will make me back to square thinking the same like usual days, sometimes not that my life is not busy, do have some works I need to do, but maybe just feel the life is bored, not exciting, and there comes my anxiety thinking appear, but sometimes is impossible life always get exciting and happy always isn’t? So make me feel this is so abnormal and tired.