To Eliana

Thanks for answering

He said he will pay the money back and gave me one of his credit cards. But after we had our last conversation I’ve said to him , that If you want to have your card back I will bring it to you. In his answer he didn’t say anything about the money. And later too. No words about money.

All the time, when i as with him i got that gut feeling that this is all wrong. That doesn’t look like me. But knowing his unhappy and hard life , problems with his family, about which  I knew even before we started communicating, made me want to make him happy.When we were together I’ve had that feeling that he was happy with me.  And thats why i’ve closed my eyes on every stop signals which my intuition gave me.

In his last message he wrote me for the first time that he loves me and somehow I didn’t have any doubt about it. But I guess having intentions like making him happy unconditionally is not enough to build a strong relationship.

I feel like that even after all the unpleasant things, that he did and said ( he often used abusive language and wrote me when he was drunk) I am not ready to give up on him.

What is wrong with me?

p.s Don’t worry. You didn’t hurt my feelings for a bit.

• This reply was modified 7 years, 5 months ago by tidalwave.