“..I really believed, I’m the one for her. The one who can cure her heart and earn her trust.”

I’ve been reading your replies and I wanted to copy&paste all the passages that I felt were relevant but I’m using a mobile and it’s a little difficult. So I’m just gonna reply with what I think

I think that you truly love this person, there was no closure, but some relationships are on and off and unstable and last for a very long time to even a life time. There are many famous examples of ‘special’ relationships that doesn’t end that go on and off somehow for a life time. (Think Elizabeth Taylor & Richard Burton) Maybe it simply wasn’t meant to be truly over and sometimes it can take years to rekindle and then maybe it still won’t work but your heart will wait for another indefinite amount of time to again try. Maybe sometimes this is the way things are with some relationships.

The psychoanalytic reasons for why you are the way you are etc. may seem to provide an answer and therefore a way out but it clearly hasn’t.

I would accept the fact that it’s not over though you are no longer together, accept that you feel the way you do until one day somehow something happens and you truly don’t anymore (if that happens)

I hope I make sense and please keep us posted!