Hi Eliana

Thanks for reading and replying, I didn’t expect anyone would go back to posts dated back so long ago to understand my story, just for that I would like to say thank you =)

I did think of meeting, as you probably have seen it from time to time my struggle. Yet I don’t want anything to disturb my peace of mind, or to be more precise, I think there is a very high risk that I would be very disturbed after seeing her. and I don’t want that, I want to let the feelings die down a bit before I really meet her, if i ever would.

I guess you have mentioned a key point too, that you said I could tell her that I have moved on. Which from the fact that I still dreamed of her when my real life was in distress, might actually mean that I haven’t really  moved on. and that’s where my fear comes in.

Dear Anita

I am sorry to know that you have hurt your feet! I also had a small injury since I jogged a bit too much some time ago, and that three weeks was a torture indeed.

I wish you a speedy recovery.

You are very right, I want to lose that hope. and the only way to do it is to withdraw from her. and I don’t want any drama, since she has made it clear i probably should do something to make my boundary clear too. and you are spot on with my longing for love too. and since this hope for love with this friend is lost, I began to imagine previous scenarios where they were closest to my idea of loving relationship, which is my ex.

I guess as time passes by i feel that it is very hard to find someone whom i truly love, and love me in return too. It’s been a year since i broke up, and i haven’t been single for so long for a long time. I guess that’s where the insecurity for uncertainty kicks in

Thanks for all the reply

Take very good care.

Chau