Hi and sorry for my late reply

I have had a lot of time to think and there are so many if’s and but’s that my mind has gone into overload so for that reason I think it is best to follow my travel dream as I am uncertain what would happen if I stayed home.

The day I was emailing you was a terrible day for me, I went home and told him everything, whilst he was VERY supportive for the first half his mind soon wondered off to being a typical man (horny) and tried it on – is this wrong? I don’t know – should he have been more sensitive or is this just me being to hopeful! this is what I mean by brain overload – I kind of just don’t know what is right or wrong if you get me!

When he is talking about marrage and having babies it really does make my tummy flutter, in a good way, who doesn’t want to feel that love. But do I trust him and is he right for me? I just don’t know, and maybe I don’t want to know right now.

When we were first getting together (3 years) ago we were on a night out on the town a bunch of us, I was super shy and we didn’t talk at all really but it was still a flirty kind of thing going on – I remember dancing on the dance floor with my best friend looking over and seeing him kiss another girl, take her by the hand and leave the club – even writing this makes me feel a little ill! and for some silly annoying reason I just cant get over that, I know its mad and were weren’t officially ‘a thing’ but still…

Please offer me you wisdom and kind advise on me hopefully doing the right thing!

Thank you so much

Sophie x