Wow. I totally relate to your story. My ex-bf has had enough after 6 months but somehow he was hoping I will change and we lasted almost 2 years and a half. Yes, he meant everything he said, and everything he said was true in that moment. He didn’t feel like you love him or care about him when you were acting like that. I understand 100% elwhen you talk about the pain you are feeling. In a way, our stories are the same. Me and my ex bf were talking about how we’ll be together forever, how we wish we had been together from childhood, I was the only one for him and he told me so many things. When he broke up with me for good I had a real shock, no joking. The thing is I somehow wanted the breakup too but this is another story. So back to you, I am so sorry for what you are going through, I know it’s extremely hard because you thought it will last. Don’t contact him. You did everything you could: apologizing, talking to him about it..nothing changed. Focus on yourself. I’ll write to you again if you have questions or something. Stay strong. It’s a good step you are aware of what you need to change… Don’t rush into a relationship too soon to fill the void and to “cover” the pain with distractions.