Hello all,

I checked my email and noticed that I sent me an email couple of days ago. it’s an email responding to my request asking him to take care of my possessions at his house:
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You are very welcome, and ok, of course, I am and always will be there for you with anything. Just let me know and I will ship your stuff to wherever you need.
These last couple weeks have been so hellish and very difficult for me. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can’t work, I can’t focus on anything, and can only think of you. Everything reminds me of you and I think of you literally every moment of every hour, every day, literally. I feel like I’m in prison, in a way, and the only freedom is being close to you, but I know that can’t happen and it is killing me. I can’t even imagine talking to or being with anyone else. Sux.
I really, really, really hope you are happy. I’m constantly wondering what you may be up to or what you are doing in Taiwan or I have something I’d want to share with you, but then realize our predicament and know that you ultimately want this.
I will willfully continue to suffer, knowing that this is for the best and what you ultimately want, and will not be responding to you at all, as a way to help you, as you requested.

I hope you are well. You are beautiful, intelligent, young and energetic, and have the whole world in your palm.
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What I ultimately want is not breaking up but finding peace and happiness within.
It hurts me to see him suffer, but I don’t know how to respond to him. Maybe it’s better to leave him alone so he can move on?
Honestly, this email give me the hope that we might get back together, or I am just thinking too much?

• This reply was modified 7 years, 5 months ago by Connie.
• This reply was modified 7 years, 5 months ago by Connie.