Creating is exactly what I want to do, but maybe it isn’t the writing that I want to create. It’s a new chapter in my life that I want to create.  I just don’t know how to start. I do job searches and I wonder what city I should enter. I look up all these articles about places to start a new life for a single female in 40s, but I get all this crap about finding a man. That’s not my main concern. I want to find me, a new me. Relationships are fine but I have learned to navigate life without them.  I have all this excitement inside of me for something different and new. Why can’t I figure out what it is??