Dear Kelsey:

You wrote: “I just want to understand why my brain won’t let go and just let me forget these people were ever in my life”, and you answered:  “years of friendship doesn’t just get deleted. We’re not computers”- we are indeed primarily, emotional beings.

You wrote: “Shannon had been a shady person in all the time I had known her (hence her and I remaining more casual for most of our years as friends)”-

Probably not a good idea to have a shady person as your friend, not even a casual friend. And then, it is not a good idea to introduce a shady person to a third friend, Emily.

You wrote: “I knew deep down that I was a crap friend, it (the broken friendships) would’ve been easier to accept”- I am thinking that it was not about you being a “crap friend” to either Emily or Shannon that contributed to the broken friendship with Emily; what it is that did contribute to the broken friendship with Emily is that you chose Shannon as a friend and you chose to introduce her to Emily even though you believed Shannon was shady.

anita