Hi Mary899, thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. There have been 2 times that i had to return home to my parents and live with them, both times of course after a breakup that left me homeless and without enough to support myself. I give myself all up till the end..they walk away as if nothing happened. This time i thankfully had my apartment, my job, friends…but it has been even more painful than the last time. I am really to a point where…i know i cant do that again, i cant trust some guy just because he said so. He has to prove it. But i dont know if i can ever ever let someone get close to me again after this…