I have a very interesting update here:

I decided to cut all ties and give myself the closure I had been longing for. I sent him an email asking him if he would be available to meet up when I am back in the end of Aug with a different visa. Surprisingly he responded within 30 mins and said he didn’t think meeting up was a good idea and also asked me not to show up at his place unexpectedly (I used to do that.)

That was it, after all the begging and pleading, he told me he didn’t want to meet up with me. The message was really clear. I then sent him my final email telling him that I decided to let go to set us free, apologizing for all the pain i have caused, telling him how much i love him and miss him, and wishing him all the happiness and success in the future. I told him it’s painful to let him go but I had to do this for our good.

He responded to my last email furiously, accusing me of still playing games and saying untruthful things. He said he had told me that he will always be my friend so he couldn’t understand why I was acting emotionally and dramatic. It seemed to me that he’s unable to handle my emotions at all. I honestly don’t have any idea why he was so upset. I now feel he’s the one who’s been indecisive. That was devastating but gave me a whole new look of him. Interesting.

• This reply was modified 7 years, 3 months ago by Connie.