Dear wildoceanflower:

I am so glad you posted again! I thought about you earlier this very morning, wondering if I ever read from you again, and here you are! So glad.

I don’t believe you twisting your ankle is a punishment. It is an unfortunate accident. I twisted my ankle a few weeks ago, walked on crutches for a few days, jumped more like it. It was very upsetting for me. Happened as I got up from my recliner, of all places, lost my footing. Same recliner I am sitting on now, very comfortable. In any case, not a punishment, just an accident. Lots of random things happening, not all is an issue of stars and moon and such.

You wrote: “For example, winning some game or prize and thinking you didnt deserve it”- thinking you didn’t deserve it is a core belief deeply registered in your brain. It goes something like this: “I, wildoceanflower, do not deserve to win, to be happy.” Combining it with your thinking that your ankle twisting is a punishment, your core belief is something like: “I, wildoceanflower, do not deserve to win, to be happy. I deserve to be punished.”

Core beliefs are combinations of thoughts and emotions. Strong emotions hold these thoughts tight together, like glue. Life events are interpreted according to core beliefs (not according to the stars!)

Guilt in the context of your relationship with your mother, father, as the child that you were, that guilt is the glue that holds these core beliefs expressed here, tight. Problem is, these core beliefs are untrue. In reality, you do deserve to be happy and you do not deserve to be punished.

Besides, if your suffering was a result of cosmic punishment decided for you by celestial superpowers of sorts, haven’t you been punished enough???

anita