Anita,

You mentioned a few times that you have “no information” – I wonder what kind of information that you are looking for?

I agree with this point : “For example, your ex boyfriend might be feeling very good this very moment while you perceive that he is suffering this very moment. As you suffer at any one moment for his (perceived) suffering, you are the one suffering while he is feeling very good.”

I know that this probably all in my mind only and maybe he is very much content with how the relationship ended considering I gave him my very own blessing to be happy and move on. I am pissed that his blessing does not work as well as I wanted it to be.

I guess that every recovery has its own ups and downs, it has been difficult for me to let it go completely. I am still struggling but I can feel that time does heal. A new person will come again and I will love again.

My fall semester will start in less than 2 weeks, I am scared for a new beginning – but at the same time, I can feel that I need that beginning to start again. I will take care of myself, I need to stop this stupid self torture.

-Mina