Hi everyone,

I just broke up with my boyfriend of about 2 months. Although it wasn’t as long as most of your relationships, it still hurts. I’ve known him for 3 years and we dated for the first time 3 years ago but it didn’t end up working out. It ended badly and words were said. Eventually we started talking as friends and were there for each other when we needed someone. This past summer we reconnected and it was extremely unexpected. I suffer from anxiety and depression and it has gotten worse over the past few months. Before we started dating again, I told myself that a relationship is not good for me right now. However, after we were talking and hanging out several times, I started to gain feelings for him again and gave it another shot. It felt right at the moment but then as time went on, something started to feel wrong. Although he is such a sweet guy and has been there for me through this tough time in my life, my anxiety felt like it was getting even worse and I started to question if I had made the wrong decision. I would start fights with him over something stupid and would say things I didn’t mean because of how angry I’ve been feeling and he almost broke up with me because of that. I love him and want to be with him but I had a gut feeling that was telling me that I shouldn’t be in a relationship right now. Every time I felt like I had to end it, I kept thinking about how upset he would be and would chicken out. Eventually I realized that it just had to be done because I need to focus on myself and do what’s best for me. He’s an amazing person and has treated me so well. He is extremely understanding about everything, even the break up. However, I know he is still hurting and I feel so bad. He loves me so much and so does his family, but I have to focus on my happiness and get better. I just feel like such a bad person, even though I know I’m not and many people go through this. I just hope I made the right decision and that he won’t end up hating me.